Favorite Verse

"For God has not given us a spirit of cowardice, but of power and of love and of sobermindedness." ~ 2 Timothy 1:7

This is the verse that impressed me a lot before I was saved. Today I pursued with the sisters and came across this verse again. The same verse, but the light I get is much brighter. The first time I read it, I hope to have the three to be a brilliant person, because as I know if I have power, love and sober mind, I will be a really brilliant person with high percentage of IQ, EQ, and AQ. But this time I read it, I'm enlightened to see that these three (a strong will, a loving emotion and a sober mind) are highly and positively related with our strong spirit to exercise the gift by God. I some more mischievously told the sisters it is <=> (if and only if) @@

p/s I just learn that there is 971 pages in the Recovery Version Bible. Gosh... We can study thousands of pages one sem to prepare for exam, but why not one year to read the bible once? Lord, I really need to repent to pursue Thee more!

This post is delayed by two days. My house router broke down, I guess. I'm now at Starbucks @@

Books and New Toy

I'm busy!

Mere excuse? Valid reason? I don't know....

But I just know I've a stack of books to read, and I want to finish them as soon as possible.

In the descendant order, the books I want to read are as follows:

The Orthodoxy of the Church (Left 20 pages to go)
Life Messages
A Random Walk Down Wall Street
The Black Swan

The World is Flat (I've read one quarter)
50 facts that should change the world
Making Globalization Work
Sophie's World (A philosophical book,
don't underestimate it because of the fancy cover)

How can I read others before these?!

Got a new toy recently, but I have no time to play!

When will I be free to
have an outing for shooting?

I've so many things to think recently, and subsequently I've many decisions to make. So far, I just make a few, and escape the rest! Argh.... Grant me time and courage please...

Recently, I really think a lot, and I mean it. I was wondering why we will not have a tumor in our heart and consequently heart cancer? My best friend, who is a medic student told me this "Erm, we have asked our lecturer before why cannot have (heart) cancer. But he cannot answer either. Many things are not explainable in medic. Just like cancer always likes to metastasize to certain part of our body. That's the cell preference. Some are because of their close location but cannot be explained. That's why we have to memorize it!"

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Hey, I've asked a few and nobody cannot answer me yet, I will continue to think and make some researches on it!

Anyway, well, I was so glad when I learned from the latest Fortune magazine that Amgen is going to launch the treatment for bone cancer this year! A big breakthrough after 15 years of toiling!

When will be my breakthrough huh? (No toiling, no breakthrough Jess) *Slap myself to wake up*

Obssessive-compulsive Disorder

Just found out this new term and came across this book.

Many around us may have this, perhaps mild one. I know this because many around me are perfectionists! *smile*

Haze!

Haze haze!!! Make my asthma worse!

The Climb by Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

There are too many ups and downs in my life! Really a roller-coaster ride!

Unexpected

Went to watch Drag Me to Hell at 1150pm!!! The ending was, well, bloody!! (I kinda knew the ending from my friends' PM, sometimes PMs do offer good "trailers") I was with a friend that time and we went to catch a cab after the movie. Well, they wanted to charge us for RM25. We were of course not willing to pay.

Guess what?!

We did something incredible, next. We headed to LDP there to thumb a leave! And guess what, after three cars "turning us down", we got one!

Incredible things did not stop there! The driver is working in a bank, and he knows actuarial things here and there. The most incredible thing is he offered to help us forward our resume to his actuarial friends! That's is the thing "troubling" us, we always get rejected by HR. He did give us some suggestions and advice on going to US too..... The whole journey was incredible!

Well, I failed my external exam, and I was disappointed and sad for 24 hours.... Now totally okay. I told my housemate "It's over. November, I will come back again!" That is what an actuary needs, isn't it?

Life sucks but sometimes there are spice and spark too...

Home

I don't know how much can we human do. I don't know how much capacity we human have. I don't know how much destroying power we human have. But but, please watch this and do something.

Life sucks, but we still have to carry on, don't we? Please do something on our life and lives.

Sucks

Life sucks!