Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Books Read in 2009

Well, I know I am not going to read any book but to start my revision, so I can now blog about how many have I read. =P

  • Fiction
  1. The Lost Symbol, 509, November 15
  • Non-fiction
  1. Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus, 286, December 5
  2. Why Mars and Venus Collide, 249, December 28
  • Spiritual 
  1. The All-Inclusive Christ, 194
  2. The Experience of Life, 386
  3. Love Not the World
  4. The Church as the Body of Christ, 274
  5. A Seer of Divine Revelation in the Present Age
  6. Crystallization-Study of Song of Songs, 115 
  7. 不要爱世界, 98
  8. 荣耀的异象与十字架的道路, 61
  9. Life Study of Matthew, 829
  10. Life Study of Mark, 598
  11. Life Study of Luke, 674
  12. The Knowledge of Life, 220
  13. The Experience of Christ as Life for the Building Up of the Church, 128
  14. To Serve in the Human Spirit, 112, August 4
  15. The Advance of Lord's Recovery Today, 181, December 25

Must read more than this next year! 

Dare not think of any new year resolutions, as I cannot really achieve them. I shall just make the life as fruitful as possible. I will reach another milestone in my life next year, quite excited, yes, not sure how will the arrangements be... 


p/s: For those without dates, it is because I lost the list of books I had in the middle of the year. 

Friday, December 25, 2009

The Difference in Brain between Men and Women

I'm reading  Why Mars & Venus Collide by the author of the well-known Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus, and impressed by the differences of men's and women's brain structure. 

I'm particularly impressed by this: 

"A woman's brain has a larger corpus callosum, the bundle of nerves that connects the right and left hemispheres of the brain. This link, which produces cross-talk between the hemispheres, is 25% smaller in men. In practical terms, this means men do not connect feelings and thoughts as readily as women do. In a very real sense, women have superhighways connecting their feelings to speech, while men have back roads with plenty of stop signs. Some researcheers believe that the integration of the two lobes may be the source of "women's intuition" - in other words, whole-brain processing. This stronger connection between different parts of the brain increases a woman's ability to multitask."

I just copy and paste the whole paragraph from the book. 

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Saying? Maxim? Cliche?

Whatever you call it...

I like this chinese "saying" : 富始一元,诚自一心。(Direct english translation: Wealth begins with one dollar, sincerity comes from one heart)

Have particular feeling when I heard this "saying", it seems to signify something, to remind me something.

I hope I can apply and remember this, etch this as my life principle.

Wonder in Daily Life 1

I've forgotten what causes this already... (Can anyone tell me?)

Our daily life really has many small scientific problems (full of wonders)...

I will keep updating some small or even tiny wonders in life that we miss, that we don't spend time pondering upon it, etc... 


Monday, December 21, 2009


So far my holidays have been a waste, I do nothing other than sleeping and watching...

I need to resume and speed up my reading... Still tonnes of books to read!!! 

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

1 Malaysia

Count how many chinese inside....




The answer is 

No wonder Malaysia can never progress well... 

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Opera Rocks

Just when I was furious about Firefox "turtling" my hectic life, I gave another try to Opera! Why another? It is because two years back I used it and it had an ugly interface and was slow too... 

Now not only the interface is nice but the speed is way faster than the once champion Firefox. I opened Firefox last night and after that opened Opera. Guess what? Opera appeared first with my auto sign-in of email! Nowadays Firefox's loading of GMail is pretty slow, not to say IE (I have abandoned it donkey years ago). You will always see a message if you don't have Google Chrome whereby it prompts you to use it with GMail to make your life faster. But shame on it. It is still way slower than Firefox. Many times, I really don't understand why advertisements can be so misrepresentative! Just like last night I went shopping in Mid Valley. I was so thirsty and went in Carrefour to get a bottle of Bliss (some yogurt drink). When I came out I only realized there was a big booth of Nestle selling all the Nestle yogurt beverages, claiming to be "best buy" things like that. I was kind of regret (I know I am like an aunty). But when I looked up the price tag only I knew it was more expensive than Carrefour! You see how subtle can businessmen be. 

You dare, you win!

This is the principle to survive and stand out. 

Okay hell of rantings. Back to my topic. Opera rocks! 

Nice nice interface...

Another story of a subtle product-Windows 7. I heard it was a repacking of Windows XP and Windows Vista. Interface with Windows Vista, but operating system with Windows XP. WTH is that.... I recalled another sarcastic story given by a passionate nature lover. Whereby she said, our processor speed just relies on the chipset, the subtle thing is that the manufacturer keeps changing the size of it, forcing us to ditch our whole bulky computer just to get a new one with faster speed.

There are more and more subtle stories.  Suddenly recall, in business world, there is another big repackaging-Securitization

Monday, November 9, 2009

An End of Turbulence

Woohoo.... No more exam until the end of this year!!!

Time to retrieve dusty books on the shelve, I know I will love them, as I have been loving them!!!

Went to watch Whiteout and Fourth Kind... Love both of them... I really love Whiteout that genre of movie... Really suit my taste... Whereas for Fourth Kind, it says it might influence our life after watching.. Well, I am wondering about the incident. For me I don't challenge its truthfulness, but about the logic, until now, with my shallow and limited scientific knowledge, I am still wondering how can it happen..

Interesting... There are so many things in this world that are bizarre!

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Reflection on a Cliche

Pondering how true this cliche is in our real life...

Top of the world at this moment

and upside down the next moment...


Monday, November 2, 2009

A Place Full of Memories

A serene place like this,

with palatable food like this,

form a sweet memory etched in my heart ~~~

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Something We Normal People Don't Challenge

This Germany couple (her husband was not there when we talked with her), drove all the way from Germany. They stopped at countless countries!!! This is an army truck that is full furnished with whatever they need. They have stopped in Cheranting for a few months. This is the place they love...

I wonder if they will/can still be back to their homeland, considering their age...

They did enlighten me... Even they are old, they explore, they learn, they try, they do things they like... We Asians dare not try and are not willing to learn... When are we going to get rid of our BOXES?

I wish I can be evil daring too, one day!!

Collecting Another Toy

Damn... I only managed to collect four contour glasses from McD which are of purple, blue, charcoal and sparkling clear...

Change the target now to this toy... Is it possible? 40 stamps?!

Saturday, October 31, 2009


This helluva pair of spectacles saves my nine-month hellish life of headache and dizziness!

I thought I got a cancer as my headache was severe... Really got to thank this pair of glasses...

Anyway, all because of money!! Money solves problems, money mitigate problems!

Friday, October 30, 2009

Elegance is an Attitude

(enlarge for clearer view)

Agree? (I don't)

Tuesday, October 27, 2009


can they make you stronger?

This time,

can I?

Friday, October 16, 2009


Today was a movie night for my company.

There is one movie night every month, and we can ask our spouse or one friend to join. There is also a team dinner too before the movie..

Before the movie, I had a hearty dinner at Pavilion, a glass of iced lemon tea, a club sandwich and a piece of banana chocolate cake with a scoop of ice-cream! And of course had some fun time chatting with colleagues.

When I was nearing GSC cinema, guess what?!, I bumped into Nuffnang Timothy and his Princess!!! So unexpected!!! I actually screamed Tim's name to my friend, and this caught Tim's attention. He turned and approached us. We shook hand. My friend told him I am his loyal blog reader. He then asked about our names and where are we working, etc. Then I also greeted Tim's Princess.. Tim was so loving that he hugged Princess when I greeted her and he said "Yea my princess". He gave us a slight bow before leaving. He is humble and friendly!

We were watching this cartoon, my boss likes this type of movie. He said movies can release stress...

Well, my "review" for Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs, is, ermm, quite humorous.

Hmnn, this is my Friday... A different Friday. A Friday in KL...

Wednesday, October 14, 2009


This is the second one that I have... I have put one in the office.... I just knew that pink one was finished!!! How can I have the full collection then?

Monday, October 5, 2009


A pang of nostalgia is hitting me...

Listening all these songs --a, b, c, d now... to accompany my quiet night of doing revision...

Not sure if you have the same kind of childhood as mine... Enjoy if you do...

We are seeking here and there, exploring here and there at the stake of our health at times; we always want to be successful, but success really needs us to pay a great price.

Actually, many times, after falling and get injured then only we realize in the end , what we want is just simplicity.

Life is simple. Cheers. :)

Saturday, October 3, 2009

New Environment

Woohoo! Working is fun albeit it is bloodily tiring! My internship has just started for two days. I love it!

On the first day, I went to work with friends by LRT though they all are working in Great Eastern. We left home at 7am to catch the bus and then boarded LRT, it was extremely packed. The night before, I was too excited and didn't allow myself to rest earlier, rendering me to be a zombie the next day. =.= I bid goodbye to my friends after I reached KLCC station. The feeling was hellishly heavy. Somehow I have the feeling like what I had during early foundation, whereby everything is so new to me, from the place, people, to things I do. Well, I reached Suria at 8am and then shopped around in Guardian. After that I quickly made my way to JP Wall. Nobody was there yet when I reached (830am)! I was waiting for around 15 minutes before one colleague arrived. Her first sentence is "Don't come so early next time." @@ She saw me so bored, then threw 2 books for me to read since she is not the one in-charged of me. Then my colleagues, gradually came to work after 9am. The culture in my working place is "don't come earlier than 9am but stay much later than 5pm". @@ After that, I was asked to do a worksheet based on things I read. Basically things I read were reserve valuation, risk margin, risk-based capital, but I was only asked to practice on reserve. Bosses were having meeting outside in the morning, so I didn't get to see them until 3pm and they were so busy with their work with my colleagues, and so I didn't have chance to talk to them much. That goes the first day of my work.

On the second day, I'm smarter. Woke up at 730am to get myself prepared, then left for LRT at 815am. :) Reached the working place at 855am, one colleague was there only. After the colleagues arrived to work, I was told I have not much to do, so I was allowed to study my own things. This did not end up so, but at drastic 180 degree of it. I was asked to modify/beautify graphs that my colleague had problem on it. At 1pm, we had a team meeting. It was "show and tell" time, whereby we shared our helluva interesting experience for the past week and things worth learning to others. My boss, Gary asked me how was my day in JP Wall and if the environment is too terrifying for me. He always mentions there is no noise in the office. He even "suggested" me to bring some balloons or games to play. =.= We then headed for lunch (yea, JP Wall has late lunch everyday, culture again), a Japanese lunch, Gary paid. =P During the lunch, Keith (the new colleague from HK) and I became the target of interviewees. A nice lunch though, got to know each others and remember their names. After the lunch, but before finishing the graphing thingy (I took long time to figure it out, as I was damn weak at Excel graphing =.=), another colleague asked me to update some tables and predict the severity/frequency for next year. It is used to do pricing. After that, I was asked to build a table and do some research (which ended up not doing so as I have no internet access, and my colleague did not seemingly manage to get me one computer with internet access). There goes my second day.

All in all, I really enjoy working if I have no exam. =.= I love JP Wall, as I feel the culture is good, not much gossip, everyone is conversing in English, everyone is serious at work, we have "show and tell" session to share our experience, etc

Gary today shared with us Principle 80/20 during the "show and tell" session. He said our 80% significant performance/successes come from 20% effort; surprisingly, our 20% insignificant performance comes from 80% effort. He then said, "Please maximize the 20% time and effort, then we will be much happier". :) I like this, many times, we really do spend lots of time on those time-consuming task which contributes not much to our goal. Yet, we cannot say we don't want to do it, it is still our obligation, etc, so the best thing is we maximize the 20% effort or time to maximize our 80% significant successes. :)

I love this journey. I hope to learn more. I hope to get rid of the hellish campus life. :)

Friday, September 25, 2009


I hope so.... =.=

Watched two movies in this week alone - The Ugly Truth and The Perfect Getaway.

I like both... Sometimes watching movie does serve as a means of relaxation.


Well, I gotta finish The Lost Symbol in this one week before I start my internship in JP Wall.I'm looking forward for another kind of life!! Another thing is I am thinking if I should buy the book The Time Traveler's Wife... Hmn....


I find that I cannot write anymore... If you keep track of my blog, it is utterly dry and boring... I hate this... How can my English writing deteriorates so terribly?!


Anyway, I've reached the first check point. As I mentioned in my previous post that there are turbulence to come; this is the first, and more are coming...

Really gotta stay tuned... Uh-huh....

Thursday, September 24, 2009

The Lost Symbol!

Finally purchased The Lost Symbol, another masterpiece from my favorite author-Dan Brown during the "one-day-trip" to Sunway cum paying a visitation to Shane!

At first I went to MPH, but I would only be granted 20% discount if I were their member; so being a wise consumer, I went to Popular instead.

And to freeze the excitement moment of getting the book, I took a picture with the book.

Don't laugh at me nor @@ me...
I say don't!!

Real Salvation?

Okay... Recently a friend of mine is so crazy about joining hand in saving our Mother Earth. And of course, being a very good friend of his, I am influenced too... Hang on a minute... I think I am not influenced by him, I have had the awareness; I would just admit perhaps, this kind of noble heart is once creeping inside me now...

During the whole conversation with him after watching the video clip, I found that money is the real root of world destruction. What then is the real salvation? I still place the glory to our Father, the Creator!

Even for the sentence Shane quoted from me, I would say I got enlightened by the Lord's words. All the way in the conversation, seeing the world getting worse, it assures me that be it from economical wise, or humane wise, we still need gospel!

Okay enough of crap, please spread around the video clip.

Friday, September 18, 2009

What a Day!?

Bought a disney pencil case for my sister, but shortly before I left Mid Valley I lost it!!!

I think I left it in the fitting room when I bought my formal wear.


Sunday, September 13, 2009

Acne Eruption!

How disorder my life is!?

More turbulences to come! Stay tuned!

Saturday, September 12, 2009

When in Rome, do what the Romans do...

The title says it all...

I gotta do what most campus students do as the preparation for exams and score excellently. ONLY do tutorials and study notes!




Hopefully, when I am writing this, the realization that hit me was not too late.

Simple yet profound~

The intention and goal you set in doing anything are of paramount importance, provided the principle you hold doesn't change throughout the course.

  1. Studies. Eg. I wanna make it to be first class.
  2. Relationship. Eg. I want no more than him(her), I wanna make this to the end.
  3. Career. Eg. I wanna setup a company, I wanna climb to the top of the corporate ladder.
Indubitably, life is not a bed of roses. There are always ups and downs, but, as long as our principle does not change, our goal and intention do not deviate, we can still achieve it.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

A Simple Life

My emotion is longing for a simple life; however, my mind and will do not allow it. @@

Saturday, August 29, 2009

I Love Studying

and I love to be conventional too...

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Random Thought

We say every Tom, Dick, and Harry, but why not Abraham, Issac, and Jacob? *confused*

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Law of Attraction

I was introduced to Law of Attraction three years back by my dear lecturer. I practiced it but aborted it not long after that. It was not so popular back then but now it's unbelievably popular.

I once again came to it as my friends "testified" to me that it really works!

Well, I, being the skeptical one as always, still think that it has some limitations, but anyhow I will be practicing. Actually without my realization, I've been practicing it over some matters, and they start to be realized now! Amazing huh? We shall see how!

Just in case you don't know how to practice, Law of Attraction suggests that:
  1. Know exactly what you want.
  2. Ask the universe for it.
  3. Feel, behave and know as if the object of your desire is already yours (visualize).
  4. Be open to receive it and let go of (the attachment to) the outcome

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

September Babies

Last week, my tutor told us that his previous boss (insurance companies do keep track with demographic information) shared with them that they are more babies born in September...


Many are drunk during Christmas and New Year!!!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Favorite Verse

"For God has not given us a spirit of cowardice, but of power and of love and of sobermindedness." ~ 2 Timothy 1:7

This is the verse that impressed me a lot before I was saved. Today I pursued with the sisters and came across this verse again. The same verse, but the light I get is much brighter. The first time I read it, I hope to have the three to be a brilliant person, because as I know if I have power, love and sober mind, I will be a really brilliant person with high percentage of IQ, EQ, and AQ. But this time I read it, I'm enlightened to see that these three (a strong will, a loving emotion and a sober mind) are highly and positively related with our strong spirit to exercise the gift by God. I some more mischievously told the sisters it is <=> (if and only if) @@

p/s I just learn that there is 971 pages in the Recovery Version Bible. Gosh... We can study thousands of pages one sem to prepare for exam, but why not one year to read the bible once? Lord, I really need to repent to pursue Thee more!

This post is delayed by two days. My house router broke down, I guess. I'm now at Starbucks @@

Friday, July 24, 2009

Books and New Toy

I'm busy!

Mere excuse? Valid reason? I don't know....

But I just know I've a stack of books to read, and I want to finish them as soon as possible.

In the descendant order, the books I want to read are as follows:

The Orthodoxy of the Church (Left 20 pages to go)
Life Messages
A Random Walk Down Wall Street
The Black Swan

The World is Flat (I've read one quarter)
50 facts that should change the world
Making Globalization Work
Sophie's World (A philosophical book,
don't underestimate it because of the fancy cover)

How can I read others before these?!

Got a new toy recently, but I have no time to play!

When will I be free to
have an outing for shooting?

I've so many things to think recently, and subsequently I've many decisions to make. So far, I just make a few, and escape the rest! Argh.... Grant me time and courage please...

Recently, I really think a lot, and I mean it. I was wondering why we will not have a tumor in our heart and consequently heart cancer? My best friend, who is a medic student told me this "Erm, we have asked our lecturer before why cannot have (heart) cancer. But he cannot answer either. Many things are not explainable in medic. Just like cancer always likes to metastasize to certain part of our body. That's the cell preference. Some are because of their close location but cannot be explained. That's why we have to memorize it!"


Hey, I've asked a few and nobody cannot answer me yet, I will continue to think and make some researches on it!

Anyway, well, I was so glad when I learned from the latest Fortune magazine that Amgen is going to launch the treatment for bone cancer this year! A big breakthrough after 15 years of toiling!

When will be my breakthrough huh? (No toiling, no breakthrough Jess) *Slap myself to wake up*

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Obssessive-compulsive Disorder

Just found out this new term and came across this book.

Many around us may have this, perhaps mild one. I know this because many around me are perfectionists! *smile*

Monday, July 13, 2009


Haze haze!!! Make my asthma worse!

Monday, July 6, 2009

The Climb by Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

There are too many ups and downs in my life! Really a roller-coaster ride!

Saturday, July 4, 2009


Went to watch Drag Me to Hell at 1150pm!!! The ending was, well, bloody!! (I kinda knew the ending from my friends' PM, sometimes PMs do offer good "trailers") I was with a friend that time and we went to catch a cab after the movie. Well, they wanted to charge us for RM25. We were of course not willing to pay.

Guess what?!

We did something incredible, next. We headed to LDP there to thumb a leave! And guess what, after three cars "turning us down", we got one!

Incredible things did not stop there! The driver is working in a bank, and he knows actuarial things here and there. The most incredible thing is he offered to help us forward our resume to his actuarial friends! That's is the thing "troubling" us, we always get rejected by HR. He did give us some suggestions and advice on going to US too..... The whole journey was incredible!

Well, I failed my external exam, and I was disappointed and sad for 24 hours.... Now totally okay. I told my housemate "It's over. November, I will come back again!" That is what an actuary needs, isn't it?

Life sucks but sometimes there are spice and spark too...

Friday, July 3, 2009


I don't know how much can we human do. I don't know how much capacity we human have. I don't know how much destroying power we human have. But but, please watch this and do something.

Life sucks, but we still have to carry on, don't we? Please do something on our life and lives.


Life sucks!

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Is Life about Waiting?

Isn't life about waiting?

...Perhaps I need to read Black Swan to get a clearer answer...

Friday, June 12, 2009

Once in a "Red" Moon

Went to watch a movie entitled "Hannah Montana The Movie" on the spur of moment in One-U. I think the last movie I watched was "Ghost Rider" with a gang of my foundation whacky friends. *Sweat* (I know I'm lame) However, suddenly, I like movie! Why? I don't know.

Upcoming post is Winding Down in Cherating. Please urge me to write. I might not write due to my excuse on my hectic life.

Monday, June 1, 2009

My Pace, My Decision

Feel good when things are back to my pace again..... :) 

Things come and things go, move on when the valuation is done... :)

Tuesday, May 26, 2009


Can I help if I, myself, am helpless? 

This is truely when the spirit is willing, the flesh is weak. 

Tuesday, May 19, 2009


Woohooo... Finally get myself a mouse after my old mouse "committed suicide" from time to time.. He is still okay but not so agile anymore.. I like this mouse... He can move on glassy and smooth surface... But he has no light, this is the thing I'm puzzled.. Don't know what he uses to detect movement. 

One thing funny is when I told my mom I wanna get a mouse in dialect... My sister also said she wanna get one.. She thought I wanna get a hamster...

Okay... I know I'm lame... Forgive me :)

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Comes to a Pause

Everything comes to a pause right now... Finished UTAR exams and also the external exam...

Entered the room with confidence, came out half-deadly... Quite a number claimed that it was tough... Just hope for a borderline pass... God... bless me please....

Went to Sunway after the exam to take CDs from cousin... But I was too careless and had a big fall right in front the main entrance of Sunway Pyramid.... @@

Bought a swimsuit to plan to wind myself down at Sunway Langoon... That time it was already 4pm... Didn't expect the theme park closes at 6pm... Decided to come next time..

It was certainly not my day!!!

Just randomly texted Shane to see if he was free to meet up... Coincidentally, he was at Sunway Pyramid too... Had a bloody 2.5 hours chit-chat with Shane and his friends.... Nice to know more friends.. They are nice....

Now hoping desperately to pass the external exam... and plannning what books to bring back to study during the semester break.... It's time to upgrade myself!!!

It's time to have a great turn to the Lord too... Oh Lord... I only have morning revival, but nothing else.... Time to pursue earnestly...

Oh... Lord... Be my way...

Saturday, May 9, 2009


@@ Cannot imagine I'm once again moving.. This is the third time after SS2, and Section 17 one...

Here I come, University Tower!!! 

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Overcome the Loss of the First Love?

Is this good or bad? 

I read this week morning revival messages one shot just now before the meeting. @@

I was very exposed when I came to Day 4 message where it talked about the overcoming of the loss of the first love. 

I was really struggling especially when I read the related two verses:

John 14:23 Jesus answered and said to him, If anyone loves Me,
he will keep my Word, and My Father will love him, 
and We will come to him and make an abode with him.

Revelation 2:4 But I have one thing against you,
that you have left your first love.  

I took exam as an excuse of not reading the Word of God. But the messages this week really really exposed me, where I'm enlightened that we need to be washed through the water in the word. All our spots (something out of the natural life) and wrinkles (signs of oldness) need to be washed away metabolically by the living water. The more we come to the Word, the more we are nourished. Hmm... No wonder I felt so dry... 

And just now, before the meeting, I just wrote a new record on the game I've been "practising" on for the past few days. It was a game I played few years ago, but couldn't have any breakthrough, but today I made it @@ I was really excited and felt a sense of archievment, *shame on me* I really need to repent and turn to the Lord. Lord, please save me. The only thing that Lord against us is that we have left our first love. The Lord loves us unceasingly, but we always forget him and replace him with other passions. Another verse that also enlightened me a lot, is Roman 8:37, But in all things we more than conquer through Him who loved us. We will conquer everything, even tribulation through the Lord, but often, I just like to depend on myself. I don't like to be weak, it makes me so inferior =.=

O, Lord, please expose me more.... I'm too weak, I need you... 

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Simple yet Significant

The sister sent me the refreshment given by (a) saint(s).

It is simple but it means a lot to me... Feel so warm and cared especially during this exam period. :)

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

"The Last Dinner" with Bro

Dined in Secret Recipe last night as bro would be going back the next day (today).

Nothing much to crap, but just feel like sharing about the food and introducing my bro :)

At Jaya One

Chocolate Indulgence *delicious*

Black pepper chicken with herbal rice

Chicken Cordon Bleau,

but it's a must try, seeing the cheese flowing
out slowly when you cut it *indulgent*

My bro....

All the pictures were taken by bro with his phone k800i camera, without proper marco focus.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Exam Fool?

Am I the exam fool? I just realize we only need to study notes and tutorial well in order to pass score well. *wry smile*

Being down-to-earth is the most stupid attitude that I should never adopt....

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Time Back to My 16, 17?

Brother is here visiting me. He came here for this morning interview for architecture enrollment. Hopefully he will get what he wants.

Hmm... I was having a night shift just now with brother. When I woke up, he then said he wanted to use computer. I then asked him to wake me up two hours later.

His presence makes me nostalgic. (=.= Is this a good thing?) I'm recalling the bits and bytes of my fourth and fifth form life. We used to be like this, having night shift to study, even more when the exam is around the corner. My mom even said, we don't have to be afraid of theft, as there was always someone awake, in a very sarcastic way of course. She doesn't like us to stay awake whole night due to health deterioration. (But this kind of advice can never get into the ears of youngsters).

I'm listening to Jay's songs. It urged me to listen to his songs while I'm typing this out. I liked Jay a lot during the two years, whereby friends around me liked him a lot also. We used to share about his gossip. @@

Hmm... With the silent night, with books in front of me, brother reading his own things, once in a while teasing each other, everything seems to be so familiar, so warm.

It makes me realize the bond of family is never too weak to remember :)

Thanks brother, your stay doesn't bring me any disturbance though I'm in exam weeks now. I enjoy your presence. (Obviously, he doesn't know I'm typing this, he will vomit if he knows it.) I think he will vomit soon, as he reads this. *sweat*

He praised for my spaghetti too


P/S: Cannot imagine I spent the bloody 6 minutes to watch these two clips, here and here.

Monday, April 20, 2009

21st Birthday

Had a rather surprising yet warming birthday. I really don't fancy celebrating birthday (I mean my birthday) and I mean what I say. I kinda "warned" my friends not to buy me anything. *sweat* But, they still gave me a warm birthday celebration. This post is especially dedicated as the profound appreciation of mine towards them. 

Chocolate cheese cake

Chocolate cake, only took the picture 
after eating part fo it. @@

Skin care essence,
my friend said it is to restore my confidence.

I was very touched, as they know what I like to eat for cake (CHOCOLATE, what else? =.=), and even bought me this bottle of skin care essence. I tried many products before, but my skin is not those smooth and soft type (gene problem) and due to my blood also; so to no avail. Hopefully, this works. :)

Pasta with Tuna

A recipe recommended by my bosom friend

but, apparently, I don't fancy it. I still prefer tuna with bread (tradtional taste). 

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Ramly Burger?

Skipping class to study Life Contingencies at home and made these "Ramly burgers" for lunch.... 


Even more indulgent? 

Monday, April 6, 2009

Past, Present, and Future

The past is a great rhapsody whenever I share it with my friend.
Is this because I've picked and thrown away the harsh and sharp pebbles? Everything left seems to be so nice, so pretty, so blessed and blissful.

The present is an ongoing battle whereby I can hardly ask a person to go the battlefield with me. The enemy doesn't want anyone else except me. I've been very tired in this. I've been fighting for years. Wherever I nearly declare victory, only to realize it is a short break.

The future is nothing more but severe battle as well. Since I cannot declare ultimate victory, I can only continue to fight, fight until the body is all covered with deep slashes and bruises.

Are all these illusion? I don't know.

The past is not that blessed either. I just realize I've been on the battlefield for years but was allowed a short season break. And I just remember and brag about all these short breaks which is apparently self-deceiving.

The present, needless to say, is to blame myself. I can choose to withdraw anytime I want. But my greedy heart over triumph urges me not to stop.

The future is all depending on my current decision. With my greedy heart, I can only foresee more perspiration and blood ahead.

Because I don't wish to forsake my self...

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Spaghetti Again :)

Lo, The first time I did it in black pepper flavor!

I can't believe that I can prepare it with limited utensil of rice cooker only. The pasta is cooked in boiling water heated by the cooker, and same to the beef ball. For your information, the beef ball is branded "Marina", which cost around RM 8 per package. 20 balls each package. Highly recommended!

Perhaps this has become my new hobby. Releasing stress, learning new things, reducing daily expenses have urged me to penetrate deeper into the mystery of cooking spaghetti. :) 

The next flavor I am trying soon is tuna + boiled eggs, recommended by my bosom friend.