A Sudden Gust of Enthusiasm in Psychology

These two days I read a lot. Am I hardworking? No no... Don't praise me, because I don't read anything related to my studies nor anything about my Probability and Statistics test which falls on this coming Wednesday. =.=||

Material I read ranging from economy, finance, health, environment to personal stories of celebrities gossips. Suddenly this made me feel we, human are so impotent.... There are ample problems out there, be it a tiny one or be it a big (global) one which we may not be able to solve it no matter how knowledgeable we are....

Watched Inner Senses this morning (for the fifth time), suddenly I was attracted by the charm of psychiatric or psychologist. This gonna make me dig out all the psychology books in library tomorrow =P I learned new things each time I watched that movie. Gonna watch it more... Seriously it's a good movie if you don't treat it as a horror movie alone.

One thing I really agree --- Our brain is way larger than space and galaxies. We, human can study space well, we can launch satellite in space, we can build some research stations in space, we can even make teh tarik in space (kudos go to Malaysians), but we can never study our brain well.... Our brain is so unique or shall I say magnificent in its own way. You can pry open our brain, take out every piece of it, but still you may not understand our brain thoroughly. It's so powerful!!!

p/s Sorry. The organization in this entry is so haphazard.... Too many thoughts are distracting my brain now.... @@

A Cheesy Lame Joke?

The other day when I was chatting with my Goddess, Ms Kong, she told me she was not working that day as she was having flu. Oh ya, just to tell you (in case you do not know), Singaporean kiasi government prohibits its citizen from going to workplace or school if one is having flu. The feeble excuse given by Ms Kong the government is that after the traumatic SARS, the government learned the lesson and took the mentioned action in order to reduce the spread of the disease to the minimum (because Singapore is pathetically small, flu is easily spread). And Ms Kong claimed that the government is efficient. *smile* Yea actually I agreed to some extent, but I still think that the government is fretting too much (you may say this is prudent though).

The main part of the conversation was not this, but

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(have a look at this short conversation)

Jess: Having flu ah? Serious?

Bambina (Ms Kong): Getting better... Actually I'm not having flu la... Just that there are two streams of slightly sticky water streaming out of my nostrils.

Jess: @@ *speechless*

What a cheesy lame joke!! But whenever I think of it, I will laugh, seriously I laugh. @@

Something I Never Attempt

Sunrise or sunset?

I don't blame you if you can't tell if it is sunrise or sunset, the picture itself is quite deceptive (due to my helluva lousy Motorola V3XX attached camera).

Darn... I really need a bloody 12.2MPs camera with those sophisticated features! Saving money for it now...

Random Thoughts of The Day

Suddenly have these thoughts in my mind:

When I'm taking a compromise, does it mean I let go my long-held principle?

When every failure is not a big deal for me, it's hinting/indicating I'm getting better in handling failure, or it's hinting/indicating I'm escaping from myself to face the failure gallantly?

How easy is that to ignore how people think about us/look at us when we are living with humans afterall?

Is stubborn with a purpose is praise-worthy?

*sweat*

Cliche 4

Short Talk: Can someone tell me what is going on in Tibet? What is the relationship between Tibetan and Chinese? Dalai Lama is not a name? A family name instead? Currently the Tibet in Exile is ruled by the 14th Dalai Lama? That is to mean there are many Dalai Lamas since ages ago? What is Tibet in Exile, having different ruler from Tibet? I'm so confused...

"Change the world by changing how you look at the world"

"Improving the situation by improving how you look at the situation" (self-created cliche, but how far it is true from the cliche above, huh?)

More About My Hidden Me?

What Jess Kang Kiah Ling Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Mayhem Caused by Assignments, Tests, Presentation

Short talk: I'm typing this out in a state of dead tiredness like zombie... I wish to sleep, but simply I just couldn't sleep... Yea, I can't sleep when I'm worn out.

Tonnes of tests and assignments nearly suffocate me. Luckily after the presentation this afternoon, I will get a very short break of a few days before hopping on to prepare for another big test. For the first time in these two years, I understand what is "busy"! Heck! I can proudly say nothing much can actually torture me, because I can handle pressure well =P But definitely not this semester, I've been too lackadaisical since the very beginning. So I have to grasp for air the night before assignment deadline and test, and grimace after the tests. (You know what was my performance then).

Yea, my presentation of "Should Capital Punishment be Abolished" was finally over. Phew... But seriously my room was over too... It's like a disaster aftermath! *sob*

I'm a forgetful person, so I ought to put everything I need in front of me, if not, for sure, I can't find it when I need it. So I nicely arranged dumped all the presentation material I need on the table until no more space left, then I threw them to the floor when I finished reading or using them.

Actually there is another big stack of books and paper,
didn't capture it.

For sure, bookshelf is something not so useful for me.... If the book is exigent in use, it will definitely appear on my table or my bed. *grin*

It doesn't mean all these books are useless la, they are treasure for me, but just not in a need for me right now. I will use them from time to time too.

Have a look of my table. *sweat*

Wonder why it's full of biscuit wrapper?

Recently I'm addicted to munching on biscuit
when I'm studying, or online-ing.

Actually it's not a problem to eat biscuit during studying time as a habit right? But the problem is I'm so lazy to throw the wrapper into the dustbin, and so I slide them nicely between my computer peripheral cable. =P (See another side of dirty Jess =P)

Oh ya, I nearly forgot this entry is to talk about my presentation today. Heck. I flunk it!!! I prepared it during last weekend. I thought I had enough material for me to draft a nice speech. Heck when I was to start writing my speech, only to realize I lacked of this and that. Heck! And so I went online to have a more thorough research on the topic. Finally I finished it on Saturday night together with the speech. It was 3am that time, and so I told myself to practise the speech on the next day. However, my teammates asked me to do the opening video clip as they did not know how to do it. And surely, as a nice person, I agreed. I started looking for related pictures and music (thanks Ken). He gave me a very nice soundtrack. Finally I got the video clip done in two hours without any touching, sad, or related words/phrases between the pictures. Firstly I had no time to think anymore, secondly I was lazy to add in. Well, I felt sleepy after doing the video clip, so I went for a nap. Then at night when I took out my speech to start memorizing, I found it was too lengthy. We needed to allocate time for audience to bombard me. So I wrote my speech over again. And cut some of my points too. That time it was already 9pm. Then again I was sleepy, I went for a nap. I though for sure I could wake up at 2am to memorize the speech. Heck I woke up at 5am!!! And I had class on 9.30am!!! So without wasting anytime I started memorizing it. I got it done by 8am. And so I got myself done and went to campus. I didn't practise at all when I was in campus. I could hardly feel my jaw anymore as I read the speech over and over in the morning.

Time slowly crept away and finally it was 1.30pm. It was our Critical Reading and Thinking tutorial, which meant it was time for us to present. Kind of excited as I just hoped to get it over as soon as possible. One by one of my teammates (two actually) finished presenting as at last it was my turn. My teammates presented quite well I would say. When it was my turn, I didn't know why I referred to the paper so much. And I hardly could open my mouth too (perhaps my mouth was too tired). And I was so thirsty (due to the salty lunch earlier on) that time, it made me so uncomfortable when I delivered my speech. *sweat* I'm blaming this and that, but I actually should blame myself. @@

We got it done in one hour which was surprisingly short, we expected we would not finish it within one and the half hour. This was partly because the lecturer didn't bombard us much and the coursmates too didn't ask much. Until the lecturer urged them to ask, then only some started to ask. The Q&A session finished in 15 minutes. The lecturer then dismissed the class. Before leaving she said our presentation was good. I assumed for sure she was not referring me. =.=|| Actually I liked this topic so much, yet I just could not deliver what I wished. *disappointed* Anyhow I just wished to get slightly better mark. The lecturer said up to last week, the average, students scored was just 8-9/15! *sweat* And not to forget the first assignment, averagely the lecturer just gave 9-10/20 (though she said she gave one person 20/20)!!! Which means it is a high possibility I would just get 17/35 (another 5 marks is class participation)!!! Which as well to mean A is already not in my hand!!! *sweat* I just dare not to imagine much.... =.=|| Now I just pray hard the lecturer will give me slightly higher than average marks (which I think I don't really deserve it). We are allowed to bring in dictionary to exam hall during final exam as according to the lecturer, given with the dictionary, students still can't manage to answer. SCARY!!! I really dare not imagine further.

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Today I got back two test paper, I was quite delightful actually as I scored higher than what I expected. Got 15.4/20 for Linear Algebra (I expected 10/20 for it) and 13.6/17 for Probability.

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What I'm worrying now is the Calculus last week, I might get 0/25 for it!!! I really hoped for re-test!!! I was too sick that time and I did last minute studying too...

This semester is too scary.......

First Outing With Shane Since He Came Subang

Last Saturday when I chatted with Shane, my bosom friend, on MSN, he told me he was going to buy train ticket to go back this coming Saturday. Then suddenly he asked me if I wanted to meet him. That time it was 2pm. As I'm scared and don't like hot weather, I suggested him to buy the ticket the next day then we meet up. It had been such a long time I didn't go out lepak lepak (roaming). He agreed and we decided to meet at Petaling Street (Shane's favourite shopping place =.=||). At first I wanted to go MidValley to buy my sweater, but Shane said there are many nice sweaters in Petaling Street, some more they are cheap. For your info, Shane is a good bargainer. And so I agreed, at the same time I thought of trying Asam Laksa there too. Again it had been a long time I didn't go back hometown, no chance to eat my favourite food- Asam Laksa and Ais Kacang!

The next day I woke up at nine. At about 10am, Shane smsed me telling me that he might be late. At that time, I was still at home, so I went out 15 minutes later, for your info I don't like to wait, I'm too impatient. Guess what? After I was in the bus for about 10 minutes, Shane smsed me telling me he reached Petaling Street already. *sweat* I couldn't reply him as my mobilephone credit had expired. That time I was at Bangsar only, needed another 15 minutes to reach Petaling Street. At last Shane called me, and I told him I would be late (I still thought that I would reach on time the night before =.=). He told me he was waiting at Hong Leong Bank.

When I reached Pudu, I didn't see any sight of Shane around Hong Leong Bank area. It was 11am that time, I was half an hour late. =.=|| Punctuality is never my second nature. *sweat* I quickly topped up my credit and called Shane asking where was him. Then he only told me he was at Hong Leong Bank inside Petaling Street. I didn't know there is a Hong Leong Bank inside Petaling Street, I just knew there is one right in front of Petaling Street. =.=|| It seemed like this outing made me "sweat" a lot.

Finally got to see Shane. =.=|| Caught a shock when I saw him, his hair style was much different. He is more handsome now, doesn't have the nerdy look anymore. *grin* I think he would be floating amidst the air when he read this.

My pathetic phone camera
couldn't take a clear picture
when the subject is on motion
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Shane in action

We walked and walked, and managed to buy T-shirts in less than 10 minutes. =.=|| Shane is really a good bargainer, the white shirt (the last one available) contained a tiny spot of stain, he then used this excuse to bargain with the seller again. *grin* Finally he managed to reduce the price from RM 18 to RM13. *bow*

Later on, we focused our mission on looking for my sweater. We saw one, and Shane managed to get the price of RM30. But he suggested to look for a few more, it might be cheaper. We then went back to the first stall we bought the shirt, the seller gave the price of RM70!! *sweat* Again Shane bargained with him, he finally reduced the price to RM35, but we didn't buy from him, we bought from the one who offered us RM30.

My sweater only at RM30

While we were walking, we saw pan kuih, at the same time, we asked each other if wanted to try it. *sweat* I like to eat pan kuih too (Kynne knows this well), have been trying it from places to places. Never try those in Singapore yet, I once watched Travelogue Show recommending it. Ought to visit Ms Kong to ask her bring me to eat. *smile* The one we ate was average only. Shane then continued his hunt for shirts and pants. *sweat* He purposely saved the money on train ticket to buy more shirts. =.=||

We walked till 1pm, then we headed for our lunch. Needless to say, we ordered ais kacang, aka abc and Asam Laksa. The ais kacang was normal only but the Laksa was quite nice. Too bad it was too salty, I wonder if the salt was free. =.=|| Anyway, it still managed to sweep away my longing of going back hometown (a bit only la, but little is better than none right?).

Good to quench our thirst during the
hot day

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My favourite!!!

Curse Shane for his 3.2MPs phone camera
and good photography skill,
made the laksa looked even more
mouth-watering

Shane then resumed his hunting for shirts and pants. He managed to grab three shirts and a pair of pants. After that, we made our way to Mydin which is just a stone's throw away from Petaling Street to get some daily necessities. Mydin was full of Malays. =.=|| And it only had 2 cashier counters in each floor with a very very long queue. However, the things there are really reasonable, to the extent they are cheap. I bought ten pieces of hangars, two bottle of bleaches (in one package) and two row of tissues paper for only RM8. Pathentically and bloody cheap right?

At the time of 3pm, Shane sent me to catch the bus (he insisted to send me while I was more worried about him, as this was the first he came here to study, scared he boarded the wrong bus=.=|| he was quite blurred at times).

We then headed home separately.

This was really a nice outing indeed seeing that I didn't meet Shane for a long time and I didn't go out to recharge myself for a long time too. I like roaming one. My hobby.

I hope to go Petaling Street at night as I was told there are many delicious snack food at night!!! Sadly Petaling Street is too dangerous to go at night plus I don't have my own transportation. Reallt inconvenient man...

p/s: I know this entry is boring. Sorry

This is Where My Money Gone

I'm one who buys pirated stuff most of the times, like shoes, jeans, shirts, bags, etc. However, it doesn't mean I don't buy original or genuine stuff at all. But if I were ask to tell what genuine things I bought the most, I would definitely say books, any kind of books, ranging from textbooks, novels to magazines. Seriously, besides sleeping, eating and travelling, I spend most of my leisure time reading this and that, most of the time, it's totally unrelated to my studies =P

I've been broke since the beginning of this semester. After scrutinizing this case thoroughly, finally I get a conclusion --I spent too much of my pocket money on books. =.=||

As I am too busy, I don't manage to read so many books at a time, so I borrowed those books that I wish to read from library and photocopied them. Yea I know this is against the law. Forgive me okay, I'm very poor to buy all of them.

How I wish to own this,
but it costs a thousand at least!!

This is the result of Malaysian government
charges so much tax on books =.=

Without realizing, this month alone, I've photocopied this much of books. =.=||

Hopefully I will finish reading all of them by the end of this year =P

Funny Thought in A Routine Day

As I notice, we tend to praise ourselves, our possession, our family, our course, our university, our partner, everything relating to ourselves. For example, nobody would say his doggie is ugly, or disgusting (may say so when he is about to dump his doggie aside). We would always say how lovable, adorable, smart, mischievous our doggie is.

Why?

Because we have already accept its imperfect as perfectly as we could?

Purely Opinion

Working on my assignment now. It's about the abolition of capital punishment. Wanna ask for your take on it. Feel free to do the poll and give your opinion =P

Thanks

Nostalgic Memories Turns One

Happy Belated Birthday, Nostalgic Memories.

I forgot my baby's birthday is on March 8. *sweating*

Let's take off the grim issues of our GE for a while and celebrate my baby's birthday. *smiles*

Time flies, whether you would like to admit or not. It never waits for us. In a year of blogging, I think I learn quite a lot, at least, my writing slightly improves. *smiles*

From the very beginning where I found that life is meaningless, but at this moment, I cherish my life a lot, though I have huge, big, small and tiny obstacles along my journey. Well, I would not say blogging made me found the true value in my life, but it helped in a way. I've been reading quite a lot in this year and learn that we must never give up ourselves, instead we should live our life to the maximum and to help others for every chance that we have.

Recently, we are having Critical Reading and Thinking presentations. And the topic of "Is euthanasia wrong" draws audience's attention the most, the audience is really active in giving their opinion. For me, I object euthanasia totally. My take will never change no matter how ill or how valueless the life the patient is leading. I don't even agree with the take that living corpse is living a valueless life. Nobody's life is valueless, I would say.

For now, I hope that I can go around and experience others' lives to seek the true values of life and to widen my perspective.

Life is undeniably a roller-coaster-ride and wonderful!!!

Upshot of Oppositions Denying BN 2/3 Majority?

~Inconclusive at this moment
though I'm quite confident with the ability of oppositions~

Have a look at these two articles I found in google news and yahoo news regarding our 12th General Election.

Well, again and again, Malaysia Government fiddled when Rome burned and this finally led to the culmination of frustration of its rakyat and as a consequence the oppositions denied BN 2/3 majority for the very first time. Rome wasn't built in one day, so please have faith in the new government going to be formed!!

Political Tsunami in Msia

Our country 12th General Election has finally come to the end. The very satisfying ending, I would conclude. Last night at the time of 7, smses started jamming my mobile phone. At first, I thought there would be no live result in internet, so I asked my friends to update me from time to time. Then I was told malaysiakini had live news for the election. I was quite happy that our country was so "open" in allowing transparency in the media. But only to find out that 4 hours later, malaysiakini and jeff ooi's blog were not allowed to be opened anymore. Until now, this moment as I'm typing this out, malaysiakini is still not allowed to be opened. One sentence to conclude this: We still can't have much freedom in media be it the electronic or press.

Well, over decades and decades, BN which is the alliance of big parties like UMNO, MCA, and MIC and small parties like SUPP, etc had been ruling us comfortably. Afterall, be it Malays, Chinese, or Indians still had faith in UMNO, MCA and MIC to represent and protect them. And because of this our "beloved" BN has actually forgotten what is "development", "freedom in speech", "freedom in religion", "rakyat's hard earned pennies", "efficiency", "national security/crime", etc. At the same time, this also made opposition parties like DAP, PKR, PAS, etc hard to stand in parliamentary. We had our crisis like financial crisis in 97, once-alarming-worldwide-terrorist-attack-in-USA in 01 with BN all the time, but slowly we come to realize that what BN did for us is not what we want, in addition, what they did had actually enraged us, the humble rakyat.

Let's think of what Tan Sri Koh, Chief Minister did for Penang for a really long duration of his tenure of 18 years (1990-2008)? And let's think of the CM before him, Dr Chong, he made Penangites have Komtar and Penang Bridge. Well, perhaps these kinds of big things can't happen always, but in the long period of almost 2 decades, Koh, still didn't give us any satisfying until recently, his deeds had actually enraged Penangites. And in return, our very wise and smart Penangites gave MCA and Gerakan a very fabulous reward in this election. All MCA and Gerakan candidates lost in Penang. Imagine that, I used the word "ALL". Not even one is spared. *smile* Rakyat is definitely not to be blame, this is just a reaction of culmination of disappointment and anger.

Like what my friend said, BN would never lose as federal government, so what is the point to rush back to hometown to cast a vote? But that's not what I think or agree with. In my humble opinion, we still couldn't like USA or Aus whereby both the government and oppositions have almost balance power, we are still not that democratic yet. But what we are aiming is to have a not-so-wide-gap-power between BN and oppositions. By this, I think it's quite enough already at this moment to have our rakyat's voice sent to parliamentary.

If you ask me how I think about this election result, as I mentioned above, I'm very satisfied. However, I just hoped that BN can handle the loss maturely and to re-evaluate themselves like how DAP handled the loss in Penang in 1969. Anyway, since oppositions have been fighting gallantly all these years, I'm quite confident they will go all out to rule and develop the states they won like Penang, Kedah, Selangor, Kelantan and Perak. At this point of time, I think Malaysia is really in a state of desperate to have a new breeze and energy to flow in to bring her to another peak. She has been dormant for quite a time, it's time for her to glorify.

(I know I mentioned a lot about Penang, because I read more of the happenings in Penang and I come from Penang too. Sorry. *smile*)

To conclude, I really hope oppositions will show us the principles they hold for all these years and to live up our expectations. They didn't have comfortable places nor any "sweets" for us during the ceramahs, but we still supported them, this really showed how much we hoped them to represent and protect us.

Hopefully this political tsunami will sweep away corruption, nonsense law but wave in development.

Let's cross our fingers to have a better tomorrow. Amen/Amitabah


p/s I know my thinking and writing are not mature to criticize anything about our country, but this is the very first time I'm so concerned about the happening in the country's I've been staying for 20 years. Anyway, all the things written above are just my very little humble thought.

Vote Vote Vote

The heat of election is never subduing, instead it is getting hotter and hotter. By the age of 19 and to be 20 this April, I'm still not eligible to vote for our country coming 12th General Election which falls on March 8, 2008. Luckily, my idol blogger, kennysia is giving everyone of us a chance to vote, be it a warm-up or for fun like me.

After answering kennysia's questionnaire, kennysia.com Who-To-Vote-For-This-Election Decision Generator says that I should vote for the following party.

According to the 100% accurate kennysia.com Who-To-Vote-This-Election Decision Generator™, I am voting for...

DEMOCRATIC ACTION PARTY!

Who Should You Vote For This Election?

Anyway I'm here not to persuade, pester or convince you who to vote, I'm here just to encourage you all, those who are eligible of course to really be a responsible citizen and to vote wisely.