When should I call it a day?

Looking at stacks of facts, theories, processes, examples, my brain is really going to burst soon. I can understand those facts, theories, blah blah blah, but somehow I find that if I don’t memorize, definitely I’m going to screw this subject up tomorrow. Management is really hard to read, even tougher than History, you still can treat History book as a story book and enjoy it (to some extent), but it’s not for Management.

Sigh, I really don’t know what time only I can finish reading Management. When should I call it a day? Now? Should I just sleep early tonight and don’t care so much? I really hope that April 30^th 2007, 4p.m. comes as soon as possible…

POWER

i wish to have five sources of power
legitimate power
to let me rule this moral-corrupted world
reward power
to let me reward those good Samaritans
coercive power
to let me punish those bastards
expert power
to let me use what expertise i have to improve this world
referent power
to let me use my personality to inspire people to build a peaceful world

Bye Bye...

I’m going to move after exam on Monday. I move because of two reasons: SS2 is quite far from PD and I can’t have my own room here. I’m quite sad because I’m going to separate with my housemates. I’m happy at the same time because I’ll have my own room soon after like finding for one year.

Thanks to all my housemates. When I came here, I knew very little about PJ and they showed me around, sampling all the nice food in PJ. When I came here, I was a computer idiot, because of them (all either take Computer Science or Business Information System), I become more computer literate. Hehe…

Thanks, thanks again for all your great care. Take care!!! Cheerio!!!

Equal Right

While arguing about the gender equality, why don’t we solve the “everyone has equal right” problem first?

Where Is Courtesy?

Malaysia is at the last two rung within South East Asia region for courtesy in one survey carried out by Reader's Digest (forgot which issue)...

This is what we categorize as Malaysian?

Where is my courtesy?
Where is your courtesy?
Where are their courtesy?

Somehow...

Somehow I find myself now in utopia. Though getting tips for tomorrow exam, I’m still lazy to work on it. I keep telling myself it’s a language related paper, why must I prepare, it just tests on our writing skills. “English is the easiest subject to prepare yet the most dangerous subject to take”, quoted from Hung Yin. It’s pretty true; I got 3.95 in the last two semesters because of the stupid papers (English Language and Public Speaking). And I don’t think I can get past the hurdle this sem as well. If I really get A- for this paper, somehow I can’t get 3.95 anymore because there are only three subjects in this sem. Sometimes, I really doubt what I learned in the lectures can be applied in exam. If I show you those notes and the exam paper, I’m pretty sure you will pity me. Both are almost unrelated. And yet the standard they set is so high to reach (at least for me, not sure about others), this makes me don’t have the momentum to look for info nor glance through all the notes and tutorial questions for once. For your info, I asked my class rep not to photocopy the notes for me, as I know I won’t look at it. Hehe.

Somehow I find myself infected with "blogging pandemic", instead of spending time to read more essay samples, I’m here doing my best endeavors to add a new post.

Somehow I find that the reality to sit for exam is not far from now.

Somehow I find that my overzealous endeavors in blogging may lead me to a catastrophe tomorrow.

Somehow I find that guilt is gushing out of my heart.

Somehow I find there is a war zone in my body, a fight between overzealous endeavors in blogging and guilt of not studying.

Somehow I find that…..

Cute

Do you want to "cubit" it? Too bad... I don't think you can..
Does it look innocent enough?

Have you even seen such a cute puppy?

Who forced it to lay like this?!

"My" puppy....

This is not illusion. It's a real puppy. Too cute to look real, huh?
Some people love their pet more than people around them because pet is more loyal. Pet will not burden you so much in sense of expenditure.
For me, I still love human more.
How about you? :)

Be Good to Your Liver

The following is the mail my friend sent me “be good to your liver”:

The main causes of liver damage are:

1. Sleeping too late and waking up too late are the main cause.
2. Not urinating in the morning.
3. Too much eating.
4. Skipping breakfast.
5. Consuming too much medication.
6. Consuming too much preservatives, additives, food coloring, and artificial sweetener.
7. Consuming unhealthy cooking oil. As much as possible reduce oil use when frying, which includes even the best cooking oil like olive oil. Do not consume fried foods when you are tired, except if the body is very fit.
8. Consuming raw (overly done) foods also add to the burden of liver. Veggies should be eaten raw or cooked 3-5 parts. Fried veggies should be finished in one sitting, do not store.

We should prevent this without necessarily spending more. We just have to adopt a good daily lifestyle and eating habits. Maintaining good eating habits and time condition are very important for our bodies to absorb and get rid of unnecessary chemicals according to "schedule."

Because:
Evening at 9 - 11pm:
The time for eliminating unnecessary/toxic chemicals (de-toxification) from the antibody system (lymph nodes).This time duration should be spent by relaxing or listening to music. If during this time a housewife is still in an unrelaxed state such as washing the dishes or monitoring children doing their homework, this will have a negative impact on health.

Evening at 11pm - 1am:
the de-toxification process in the liver, and ideally should be done in a deep sleep state.

Early morning 1 - 3am:
De-toxification process in the gall, also ideally done in a deep sleep state.

Early morning 3 - 5am :
De-toxification in the lungs. Therefore there will sometimes be a severe cough for cough sufferers during this time. Since the de-toxification process had reached the respiratory tract, there is no need to take cough medicine so as not to interfere with toxin removal process.

Morning 5 - 7am:
De-toxification in the colon, you should empty your bowel.

Morning 7 - 9am :
Absorption of nutrients in the small intestine, you should be having breakfast at this time. Breakfast should be earlier, before 6:30am, for those who are sick. Breakfast before 7:30am is very beneficial to those wanting to stay fit. Those who always skip breakfast, they should change their habits, and it is still better to eat breakfast late until 9 - 10am rather than no meal at all.

Sleeping so late and waking up too late will disrupt the process of removing unnecessary chemicals. Aside from that, midnight to 4 is the time when the bone marrow produces blood. Therefore, have a good sleep and don't sleep late.

Endless Night

Regardless how many health articles I’ve read about the effects of insufficient sleep, I still stay up late either to study (only when exam is approaching or during exam weeks) or online. When I read that staying up late and insufficient sleep can take a great toll on not only our liver but also other part of our organs, I start to be scared. I don’t want to leave this beautiful world so soon, so many things are waiting ahead for me to explore. Hehe.

I read one article in Reader’s Digest (forgot which issue) about insufficient sleep. Researches by researches have found that no matter how balanced and nutritious your meal is and how much you exercise every week, if you don’t have enough sleep for a long period, it will lead to health defect. It’s quite scary to study all those results of researches. I tried to “sleep early and wake up early” but those attempts were to no avail. I think it’s simply because of my feeble heart and night activities seem more attractive to me. When I was young a few years back, I thought that “stay up late and wake up late” is same with “sleep early and wake up early”, some how later I found out that things cannot just be calculated mathematically, “stay up late and wake up late” differs from “sleep early and wake up early” a lot though the amount of time spent on sleeping is the same.

Supposedly I should sleep now as I slept at 5am last night and woke up at 10am this morning. I tried to sleep just now. However instead of laying on bed and doing nothing, I switch on my laptop and am surfing net again. According to researches, 5 hours is not enough for us, rather we should sleep around 6 to 8 hours every day. Furthermore, the quality of sleeping last night was not so good, I woke up quite a few times simply because I scared I overslept. Due to several nights by which I sleep at 5am, I think tonight will be another endless night. I’m wondering if I’m suffering the sleeping disorder. =.=

I received something lame yet meaningful today

Well, my birthday had just passed a few days ago. I didn’t celebrate as I don’t really like to celebrate my birthday. This is perhaps because of my superstitious mum telling me that I’m not suitable to celebrate birthday since I was young. She said if I celebrate my birthday, my academic performance will drop and my future will be in ruin. So since I was young, I was quite scared to celebrate my own birthday. Silly right?

In this E-world, everything really runs digitally. My friends are not excluded as well. My mobile phone, Friendster comments and testimonial section and mail box were flooded with wishing messages on my birthday. I was quite touched receiving all those messages. Perhaps I should say I was really touched (not until I received a card today) as my friends still remembered my birthday during the study leave. All were busy preparing for exam. Besides, my secondary friends wished me as well since we lost contact for one year. Hereby, I would like to thank Ewe Chin, Shane, Kelvin, Timothy, Chai Iee, Janice, Yu Han, Vincent, Fui Lee, Foong Kheng, Billy, Bing Shing, Yi Cheng, Chor Yen, Nancent, Kelvin(again), Sim, Joyce for their wishes via SMS. The order goes according to the order in my phone. Besides, I would like to thank those who wished me in MSN and Friendster: Onn Sein, Jeff, John J, Chi Sern, Shaw Chian, Shu Vien, Paey Ting, Ling Han, Stepfyn, Shu Han, Jacqueline, Teow Kheok, Shu Han, Janice Low, Ka Hoel, Mr. Lee and so forth. Sorry for those name that I had forgotten. My coconut is a RAM not a hard disk, cannot store long term memory.

However, today I received a birthday wishing card from my bosom friend in Penang which I really did not expect, because she finished her exam same day as my birthday. It has been a long time I don’t give people wishing card as I think it’s quite lame to do so until I received a card today. A simple card with invaluable wishing can really mean a lot. Thanks, Ewe Chin, your card really makes my heart move! Again no beautiful words come across my mind now to describe how touched I am.

I would like to thank Shane as well as he gave me a valuable book as a birthday present. Start wondering why my friends are so lame? This is perhaps because I’m a lamer. Among the wishes, the ones Shane and Kelvin wished me are the most special. However, I’m not going to reveal them here, I will just keep them to myself.

From this, again I would like to say that it’s not necessary how grand your birthday celebration has to be or how expensive your birthday present has to be. An ordinary card or present with unordinary (sincere) wishes can be far better than the former ones if it’s not sincere.

To conclude, I would say my 19^th birthday is MEMORABLE.

p/s: The last birthday wishing card I gave to is Ms Kong (I was forced to do so by someone). =.= But I will reconsider whether to give birthday cards in future as a “lame” card (in my view) can mean so much.

p/s: The card above was given by Ewe Chin

Exam, exam and exam

Phew! After days of laboring, finally my first paper was over. The paper is not as hard as I expected. But I prefer to take it seriously because my overconfidence last sem almost killed me in the exam. Hopefully the coming two papers will be still within my ability and manageable.

This exam really affected my mood badly. As I’m determined to score 3.90 to maintain my scholarship, I found out that I’m getting more and more freaked out sem by sem when exam is around the corner. I’m scared of exam and even have exam fever. Actually whether getting scholarship is not a big deal for me in sense of financial problem, but I think a brilliant scholar should get scholarship, it is an honor. Sometimes, I wonder whether it is honor or future that drives me to strive for excellence. Hehe.

Self-evaluation

I’ve finally done partial of my self-evaluation. All my disappointments were actually triggered by my negative mind. I’d lost my self-control as I left home too long; as a result my emotions were disturbed easily. I confined myself too much in a denial state. My result for my partial self-evaluation is that all this is actually a matter of mind over matter.

I should not maximize my pressure; instead I should think of a way to cope with it.
I should not care too much of how others judge my effort.
I should not do last minute work which cause me freaked out at the end. “We do not plan to fail, but we fail to plan”, this is what happens to me.
I should not be so vulnerable to negative thoughts; instead I should control my emotions more.

Beautiful Sunday

This is my ever first Sunday morning at home after the seven torturing weeks in PJ. I’m so happy and blissful. My shoulders are now free of burden. I’m as light as feather. No words come across my mind; I have no beautiful words to describe this ever beautiful Sunday. However, one song keeps playing in my mind and heart:

Sunday morning, up with the lark
I think I'll take a walk in the park
Hey, hey, hey, it's a beautiful day
I've got someone waiting for me
And when I see her I know that she'll say
Hey, hey, hey, what a beautiful day

Hi, hi, hi, beautiful Sunday
This is my, my, my, beautiful day
When you said, said, said, said that you loved me
Oh my, my, my, it's a beautiful day

Birds are singing, you by my side
Lets take a car and go for a ride
Hey, hey, hey, it's a beautiful day
We'll drive on and follow the sun
Making Sunday go on and on
Hey, hey, hey, it's a beautiful day

Hi, hi, hi, beautiful Sunday
This is my, my, my, beautiful day
When you said, said, said, said that you loved me
Oh my, my, my, it's a beautiful day

Hi, hi, hi, beautiful Sunday
This is my, my, my, beautiful day
When you said, said, said, said that you loved me
Oh my, my, my, it's a beautiful day

Hi, hi, hi, beautiful Sunday
This is my, my, my, beautiful day
When you said, said, said, said that you loved me
Oh my, my, my, it's a beautiful day

Life is not always beer and skittles. After enjoying this Sunday, I've to study for final exam...

A Narrow Escape

After much struggles, I decided to go back home. I nearly broke down in PJ, a hell as well as a heaven for me. For the first few weeks of Semester 3, PJ was really a heaven for me. I enjoyed myself everyday. When it was coming to the end of the semester, PJ was no more a heaven; it’s a hell for me. I miss my family so much! I don’t think I could stand this kind of life (eat out everyday and wash clothes) anymore, so I choose to sail my ship to anchor in “Penang Harbor”, my GREAT and WARM home after Web Page Design revision class. I was so excited in the entire journey, I didn’t sleep at all. It had been seven weeks I didn’t see my family. My heart was beating hard the moment I saw my dad’s car waiting for me at the Juru Tol, I descended the bus like a lightning. And I ran as fast as I could to hug my mummy (in my mind), I could not do so as I’m a Oriental. It would catch some unnecessary attentions and bewildered looks if I did that.

Well, I had a sumptuous dinner with my family when I reached home. After that, I went meeting my bosom friend, Shane. As he left his wallet (including license and IC) at his hostel, I had no choice but to drive him to go “yam cha”. As I had to fetch my sibling home from tuition, I ended our “yam cha” session after an hour. We wished we would have more time to chat, it is always endless chit-chat whenever we meet, we have too much things to share.

Something TERRIBLE happened after that. On the way to Shane’s house, I had to make a U-turn. The main road was so busy, it was like an expressway, and every driver drove at break-neck-speed. I was so impatient to wait for the traffic light to turn to red so that I could make an easier U-turn. So I tried to have a U-turn by moving my car out slowly. However, all the cars were in really HIGH speed, and so my attempt was to no avail. But my car was half way out in the main road; I had no choice but to make a pause there for a while (in just a few seconds). Out of the sudden, a trailer honked at me TERRIBLY and CONTINUOUSLY. The trailer was really big and obviously I blocked its way. It NEARLY went into me (just a matter of a few centimeters)! At that moment, my siblings were so panic-stricken and kept asking me what to do next. Even Shane had no idea and what he could do was to keep quiet. Surprisingly, I was calm and I tried to turn my sterling to the right, and let the trailer passed by easier. When the trailer passed by, the driver threw all the “BEST” words to me.

I was so headache when I reached home. The scene kept repeating in my mind. I really could not forgive myself to make such a big mistake, 3 lives were at my hands! My parents consoled me and said that I had a long journey home without sleeping in the bus, at the same time they had a strong excuse not to let me drive the next time I come back home. Tonight, I really have to make an evaluation on my driving. Sigh…

All I could say before ending this post is Thank God. God is always there to bless me….

Foundation Studies is coming to the end

It’s April 13^th 2007 today, Friday… Duh… This indicates my foundation studies is creeping to the end… One thing that I regret is that I didn’t spend much time with more friends. My circle of friend is limited to TD3 only. Worst still, I didn’t know much about some of my classmates. It’s really embarrassing to tell others I don’t even know much about my own classmates. I missed many chances to get to know friends more in other TDs. Many of them out there are pretty fun and special.

Shuzhen, Gin Hwa and Alan (TD3) are from Sibu, Sarawak. They seldom talk to us. I guess they want to protect themselves because they are all the way from Sarawak and hope not to be bullied of conned by anyone. Among them, Shuzhen talks the most with me. I’ll get to know them more in Bachelor Degree as we are taking the same course. We even promise to register at the same time to get into the same tutorial group.

Hung Yin (TD4) is very pretty and smart. She is really an iron lady. She travels to and fro everyday from Klang. And yet she scores well in exam. She looks fierce to me, but I think she should be friendly from the way she talks to those close to her. I will get to know her more in Bachelor Degree. Both of us are taking Actuarial Science. XD.

John J (TD1) is a music enthusiast. He knows music well. He said he was born with music. He started playing organ at the age of 7, then switched to guitar at the age of 8. He started learning bass at the age of 12, drums at the age of 13 and piano at the age of 15.

Joel (TD4) is also a music enthusiast. He is John’s good friend. He can talk ceaselessly about music with John.

John (TD1) is really good in public speaking. I was impressed when he was giving an impromptu speech about life.

Parveen (TD4) is very good in public speaking as well. His impromptu speech about UTAR was excellent. That speech really impressed me. Does “My Choice” labeled at the back of our T-shirt really indicate our choice? Or it is our parents’ choice. That speech was interesting.

There are still many whom I wish to mention one by one but I’m too lazy to do so. Hopefully we all will still keep in touch as most of them are moving to Setapak soon.

I really have to evaluate myself on my socialization. =.=

Circle of Bloggers Is Expanding

My list of “Harbors for Anchoring” is expanding… Obviously, it is a good sign.

I was inspired by Shu Vien to blog; now I’m inspiring others to blog. Blogging is not only fun but at the time a very good place for us to release our feelings, to share information, and to be kept as e-diary (just in case contract Alzheimer’s disease one day) XD.

One of my friends, Tommy told me that blogging will not last long, as it’s just a vogue for us now. I’m not sure whether he is right or not. We shall see then, how long I blog.

Disappointments

If we suffer minor setbacks, each at different time, we won’t feel that bad, we still can take it gracefully. How if when we have to take all of them at once, the feeling is definitely BAD… The ‘taste’ of feeling is too sour and bitter for you to bear. I experienced these today… Perhaps many things followed the flow for quite a long time, all of the sudden, I’m so fragile to bear all these… I found myself in my lowest ebb now. Really down… =.=

Disappointment 1

I was quite disappointed with what I did in Web Page Design Test 2. I did badly because I didn’t study a single word before the test. I spent all my time doing assignment. This is my mistake. I have to evaluate myself on this (tonight perhaps). My time management is really poor.

Disappointment 2

I was disappointed with what I got for English for Communication’s assignment. We really put in a lot of effort in the entire process of preparing the drama. There was even a conflict in between, and it really took a great toll on us. But at the end, we were able to put all the negative thoughts aside and presented the drama successfully (at least for our own view). This seemed to be contrary to others (can be seen in how much we scored for the drama).

Disappointment 3

I was disappointed to see my friends, John and his group not getting the first in the drama competition. They were really good, their language is really good. For me, I think they deserved to be the winner, they really should be the one enjoyed the glory of chamber.

Disappointment 4

I’m really worried with my future. I was once firm with what I want and what I choose. However, people around me start telling me that it’s not promising to choose Actuarial Science as my bachelor degree major course. Is it true? I’m ready to take all the difficulties of the course. But the problem is that I can’t control the market. It seems that I have made a risky choice (or worst still I have made a “sure-lose” decision).

I’m wondering why all of the sudden my wall of confidence collapse.
I’m wondering why all of the sudden I let all my emotions control me.
I’m wondering why all of the sudden I mind my results so much.
I’m wondering why all of the sudden I’m so silly to write out this.

Okay, I think it’s time for me to make a SELF-EVALUATION…

One Year in PJ

Time flies!!! It has been almost one year i am in PJ. It's considered as a meaningful year. I really learn a lot here.. Thanks to my USJ cousin, knowledgeable and kind lecturers and not forgettable friends.. I find out that time is not a matter in building friendship.. What matters is whether the time spent is quality or not? Whether is it from bottom of heart? I really appreciate my friends here.. Perhaps I go through many harshnesses here and they are the ones who go through all thick and thin with me.. This really enhances our friendships. We did assignments and a drama together recently(the first and last drama in my life perhaps). We spent more than 12 hours in U to rehearse and do the portfolio. Though a conflict happened in between, we were able to solve it at last... Though the process was tiring, we really enjoyed it...

I don't deny there are many unhappy moments and arguments among us in this one year, but every time instead of building a wall, we build a bridge!!!

However most of them will go Setapak Campus to further their studies... I'm truly sad for this... I really hope I can freeze the time... As the adage goes, the result is not that important, what matters is the process... Perhaps they are just some passers-by in my life, but surely I will not forget them... They give me assurance and support when I am down... I have nothing to show them how I cherish them... I think we don't need any action or word to prove anything, because far at the bottom of our hearts, we FIRMLY have each other!!!

Final Fantasy

Final Fantasy... This is our theme of Web Page Design assignment, after drifting from Chinese zodiac to bridges and then sport shoes. All are lame topics, but we have no choice, all five members are lame as well.

Our tentative slogan for the website is "Where there is a thrill, there is Final Fantasy". This is my idea, lame right? I open this to everyone, please tell me if you have any idea regarding this...

Final Fantasy is our ever last topic, hopefully we can come out with some sparks, come out with final fantasy!!!

updated: How about "Ultimate Fancy, Final Fantasy"? Is it lame? Haizz.. I'm so lame, can't think of any creative ones..