Recently, I'm mixing a lot with a bunch of whacky friends. Actually I've been knowing them for more than 10 years which is really not a short period. But we have never been so close until these two weeks. shame me...
Actually perhaps the start is not a good or extraordinary one. So we never get along like clue and paper. Blame me for being a nerd when I was in primary and secondary school. I never know I WAS a nerd until many told me I was a nerd. So I have to admit it now though I still think I was not, I am not, I will not be... Shame me.... And they didn't talk to me much because they thought I was too cool to approach; at the same time, I thought they were too cool to approach. Shame me... Those who really know me actually know I'm too friendly la, ain't I right to say so? Heee
I purposely put up this post because I really would like them to know I really regret I miss the chance to get close with them. I miss the chance to have a blissful high school time, instead, I was having a pissful high school time... *crying*
But all of all, I think the main problem is we have a misunderstanding in between... They thought I was in another gang. Sigh... This gonna be something very complicated for me to explain here. They thought I was in Gang A, and they never like Gang A. Interestingly, I am not resonant with Gang A at all... Yea... For those who know me well, I like to use the words resonant and frequency... Perhaps I am not someone who is well in expressing myself, so I really need the same frequency to be there... Like my best friend, Ewe Chin, she actually knows what I would like to say though I haven't reached what I would like to tell... *smile* At first, we really had a hard time, especially when she would like to clarify the doubt in studies with me. Not that I was not willing to explain, but I really couldn't express what I understood. Perhaps like what my Math lecturer said before if one does not know to tell what one understands then one actually doesn't know the thing thoroughly.
I admit I am someone who tends to make people misunderstand me without my knowing. *sweat* This is well proven in the above two examples.
Sigh... Actually why there are parties in this world, why must people diffrentiate themselves from others? Why must there be Barisan Nasional, DAP, etc... Why must there be republic, democrat, etc? Why must there be gangs in just a small class?
Actually perhaps the start is not a good or extraordinary one. So we never get along like clue and paper. Blame me for being a nerd when I was in primary and secondary school. I never know I WAS a nerd until many told me I was a nerd. So I have to admit it now though I still think I was not, I am not, I will not be... Shame me.... And they didn't talk to me much because they thought I was too cool to approach; at the same time, I thought they were too cool to approach. Shame me... Those who really know me actually know I'm too friendly la, ain't I right to say so? Heee
I purposely put up this post because I really would like them to know I really regret I miss the chance to get close with them. I miss the chance to have a blissful high school time, instead, I was having a pissful high school time... *crying*
But all of all, I think the main problem is we have a misunderstanding in between... They thought I was in another gang. Sigh... This gonna be something very complicated for me to explain here. They thought I was in Gang A, and they never like Gang A. Interestingly, I am not resonant with Gang A at all... Yea... For those who know me well, I like to use the words resonant and frequency... Perhaps I am not someone who is well in expressing myself, so I really need the same frequency to be there... Like my best friend, Ewe Chin, she actually knows what I would like to say though I haven't reached what I would like to tell... *smile* At first, we really had a hard time, especially when she would like to clarify the doubt in studies with me. Not that I was not willing to explain, but I really couldn't express what I understood. Perhaps like what my Math lecturer said before if one does not know to tell what one understands then one actually doesn't know the thing thoroughly.
I admit I am someone who tends to make people misunderstand me without my knowing. *sweat* This is well proven in the above two examples.
Sigh... Actually why there are parties in this world, why must people diffrentiate themselves from others? Why must there be Barisan Nasional, DAP, etc... Why must there be republic, democrat, etc? Why must there be gangs in just a small class?
Hmmm.... I think I should really stop here... But one last thing, I am really comfortable with this whacky gang of friends. I hope we can chase back the time we had wasted.... >.<
I'm emotional again....
4 comments:
You're a NERD? WHAHAHA NERD~ I tot you say you always skip class n lepak one ... how come suddenly become NERD liao HAHAHAH ....
Bingo... You are the one who understand me!!!! I had already clarified I was not, I am not, I will not be a NERD... Nobody believes only ma...
I think i know who are the 'gangs'.. again i wud like to say 'let bygone be bygone'.. appreciate what you possess today so that u wun regret tomorrow.. At least those who are resonant wif u know you are NOT a nerd.. and thats enuf!! the most important thing about fren is quality and not quantity!!
Eh btw, forgot to include that tis is the first time I see you use the word resonant, although frequency is very common liao
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